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All poetry written by Michele
Ann Palulis. (c) 2003 All rights reserved.
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YOU
Your tongue is like a spear
stabbing through me with every word
Your closed-minded ways have hurt me
for the very last time
I will survive without you
I will live again
You can't hurt me now
You can't take me down
everything you say
breeds hate into the world
You beat me with that tongue
You beat me with silence
To live with you
is to live alone
To be with you
is to be alone
To see you
is to be blind
How can we go on
living this life
thinking everything is fine
when everything is dead
I don't feel pain
I don't feel happiness
I don't feel sadness
I don't feel anything
LIFE
A flower in a field
A bee on a flower
life is so precious
yet we take it for granted
A bird in a tree
a sapling in the ground
life is so fragile
yet we take it for granted
A cat on a stoop
a kitten in a window
life is so sweet
yet we take it for granted
A child on a playground
a teen in the alley
life is so terrifying
yet we take it for granted
Life is so precious
Life is so fragile
Life is so sweet
Life is so terrifying
Why do we take it for granted
MY SOUL
in your eyes
I see the hatred you breed
in your soul
I see the love that you need
your eyes shadow the truth
my heart feels the pain
your inability to feel anything
other than hate and jealousy
has caused our lives to separate
your inability to love
has caused my soul to ache
every day I ponder the ways
to make you feel something
other than hatred and sickness
every word I say
every breath I take
I can feel you beating me down
your killing my soul day by day
piece by piece
you tear me apart
leaving nothing
but shreds of my soul
in your eyes I feel the hate
in your soul I feel the greed
in your being I feel my demise
in your life I feel the death of my soul
WORDS
Words are only words
yet they mean so much
Lies are only lies
yet they hurt so much
Tears are only tears
yet they say so much
why do you hurt me
why do you say these things
think before you speak
think before you act
open your mind
close your mouth
release yourself
and be free
WHERE ARE YOU
Where are you now my love
when I need you the most
Where are you now my love
drifting further into lust
Where are you now my love
can you hear me calling you
Where are you now my love
my words fall on deaf ears
Where are you now my love
as I fall into another's arms
where are you now my love
you are gone but not forgotten
MY ANGEL
You came into my life
You gave me a reason to live
You took me by the hand
Even though you were far away
You gave me hope when hope was lost
You gave me sun when there was frost
You came to me in my dreams
You lead me to your arms
Without ever touching me
You melted me with your words
Swept me away with your emotions
You crippled me with your strength
Inflated me with your love
Although I have never met you
I feel you have always been there
Although I have never seen you
I feel you really care
You are my angel
Watching over me
Keeping me safe from harm
Guiding my life
Leading me down the path
To do what is right
PAIN WITHOUT TOUCH
I have no tears left to cry
I have no feeling left in me
I am numb to all your pain
I have shut you out of my heart
You have hurt me for the last time
You have never touched me
Yet I bleed from the wounds
You have inflicted on me
The scars run deep
The pain never ending
The tears have run dry
I don't feel a thing
My wounds will heal
I will survive
Without you in my life
I want you to be
A part of my life
but you have hurt me
For the very last time
Open wounds continue to bleed
Especially when the knife is twisted
Healed wounds are easily reopened
Especially when the knife is sharpened
New wounds are easily inflicted
Especially when the knife is honed
My wounds will heal
I will survive
Without you in my life
I want you to be
A part of my life
but you have hurt me
For the very last time
A NEW LOVE
Opening my eyes and my mind
I awake to a new love
Although it is in a familiar face
There are new feelings to trace
Looking into your eyes
I see all that was never there
Looking into your heart
I see that you really do care
Looking into your soul
I see that you were always here
Opening my eyes and my heart
I found the love that was new
Alive and full of lust
You are my true love forever
THE CIRCLE
Born into a world of hate
Grow into a world of violence
Live a life of peace
Live a life of solitude
Die in a world of love
Reborn into a world of friendship
MISERY
The more I think things are better
The more I realize you'll never change
The more I try to pull us closer together
The further and further apart we drift
Lord knows I have tried
God knows I have cried
No one knows that I have lied
To myself and to you
Is it that you are simply familiar
Or is it that I really love you
Do you really care for me
or am I too just familiar to you
I begin to hide things and not tell
afraid that if you knew you'd only yell
that is not right or fair to be that way
but I want both worlds and can't have them
On the one side I want you
On the other I want happiness
Shouldn't these be together?
ALONE AND COLD
I sit alone and stare at the darkness
The sky is full of beautiful stars
The air smells of springtime and flowers
There is no moon and there is no noise
Just the whispering breeze
As it flows gently by my ear
I look deep into my own darkened soul
For the answers to questions unsolved
But there are no answers here tonight
Nor will there be any here tomorrow
Or the next day for that matter
For there simply are no answers
To the questions that haunt my soul
My blood is cold and my heart is dead
I can't feel anything anymore
As the sky clouds over and the stars disappear
Just as the happiness that I once knew
disappears into the past
Thunder claps and lightening strikes
As the forces in my head take shape
Destruction of the heart and the soul
Is the mirror image of the tree shattered
By the furious lightening bolt
Ripped to shreds in a split second
Just as my heart pumps one last beat
My body is alive but my mind and soul are not
I cannot feel, I cannot breathe
I cannot see, I cannot move
I am paralyzed and dying right before my eyes
As a breeze blows and rustles the leaves
I awake to find I am still alone and cold
SIMPLE PLEASURES
Did you ever stop to think
Of the simple things that make us happy?
Did you ever stop and wonder
Why as a child life is so much easier?
Did you ever stop and ponder
How come as we grow older we worry more?
Did you ever stop and reflect
On how nice it would be to go back?
Back to a time when the days were filled with fun
Back to the time we had no real worries
Back to the time when simple pleasures were easy to come by
Simple pleasures like an email from a friend
Simple pleasures like a smile from someone close
Simple pleasures like being a child?
GONE FOREVER
Breathing in
Breathing deep
I smell your essence
I feel your presence
You are far away
but you are with me
you are inside me
even though you are gone
Your memory is with me
even when I forget
you live on inside me
but you are gone forever
I miss you deeply
although you are here
in spirit and soul
but your body is gone forever
EDGE OF LONELINESS
Sitting at the edge of loneliness
tears streaming down my cheeks
I have no one to go to
no one who will understand
we come from very different worlds
have grown from very different lives
knowing that you love me
but unable to accept your faults
I can't expect you to change
nor would I want you to change
I cannot go on like this
so cold and alone in my mind
spending my days in a fantasy
thinking everything will be okay
things won't be okay
until I accept you for you
and you accept me for me
willing to live with the little things
that drive each other mad
a deep loneliness clouds my heart
but I will survive when the sun comes
and shines on you and I
only a little longer shall we hold out
and then all will be well again
my loneliness will subside
and we will feel true love again
for each other and ourselves
UNTITLED
On a cold and dark road
driving home alone
waiting to be with you
waiting to hold you close
In my mind I can see you
I can smell your scent
Taste your lips
Feel your presence
But you are not here
you never will be
you are a flickering light
in a dream that I live
As I walk through the door
I see you standing there
You have come alive
You are there for me
As I realize you were there
All along, I just didn't see you
I hold you in my arms
And thank the spirit
For opening my eyes
THE RIVER
The river flows calm and steady
carrying the debris of a broken life
trash floats downstream
on waves of broken dreams
a leaf steadies itself on the rapids
just as a person on the road of life
as the water flows south
another day passes
further still it flows
opening into the ocean
where all dreams come alive
and a new life begins
THOUGHTS OF YOU
I awake into a sea of darkness
My mind wanders throughout the day
every time it comes back to the same thought
you are the only thing in my life that matters
you are the only thing that makes any sense
as the fog clears and the soul awakes
I realize another day is before me
I stretch and yawn awaiting the spike
Energy of thoughts of you to carry me
Through another day of living hell
Thoughts travel quickly on the open freeway
but they always return to you
you are the only thing in my life that matters
you are the only thing that makes any sense
MUSIC
Married to Music
Melody of the soul
Lyrics speaking emotion
Rhythm feeding the mind
I want to share with the world
All that I have to give
Lust and hunger breeds
Only music quenches this thirst
ALONE AGAIN
I sit alone again
Spending my day by myself
Visions of sadness fog my eyes
Cold, Dead and tired inside
No one to love
I love no one
No one to speak to
No one to listen
Alone, Cold and lonely
Desperate for human contact
Far deeper pain lingers
Than that visible on the outside
Screaming for this pain to end
A NEW BEGINNING
Today my world crashed down upon me
All my hopes were lost and gone forever
The tears strangely would not fall
The pain was not there in my heart
A light sparkled in the distance
It was you caressing my shoulder
Pushing me onward into the night
Pulling me from the void of my day
Cold and tired but full of a new energy
A new inner spirit has awoke inside me
New beginnings carved out of old losses
Cradling the terror of a life alone
Surrounding myself with positive energy
I will survive with you by my side
THE VOICE
The voice that speaks to me knows me well
It follows me into the depths of darkness
Leads me away from evil and pain
Pushes me toward light and beauty
Guiding me into a new day gently
Awakening within me all the emotion
That thrives to be seen and felt
Never allowing cruelty to enter my heart
Always reminding me to do the right thing
Speaking to me in a subtle tone
Just below the awareness level
Of my conscience and memory
OUR LOVE
Renewing our love for one another
Reborn again each day
Looking in your eyes
I see so much love in your heart
Learning to feel again
Learning to Love again
The time that you spend
Trying to rekindle our flame
Means the world to me
Trying to find each other
In a world that has become distant
Trying to find what we lost
Only time will heal our wounds
All Gone
The feelings once inside
now betray me forever
no feeling left
but cold dark pain
hate breeds fear
fear breeds hate
lying in the darkness
close my eyes and cry
can't back and can't go forward
left to dread the misery
of another day alone
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